I don’t normally feel like this
this isn’t normal
It’s like my head wants to explode
it does but it won’t
How do you know, you’re not me?
we’re all in this thing together
That just leaves me twice as lonely
that’s a feeling we all share
I wake up and dread walks in
that’s a gut feeling
I have this mad idea to run
if you do I’m coming with you
There’s this conflict I’m avoiding
that’s because you don’t need stress
Maybe not but the email’s waiting
it can wait what’s one more email?
I can’t even think about it
what’s your body trying to tell you?
Even thinking makes me tired
thinking’s work we do inside us
I’m just going round in circles
from the self we can’t escape
What if this goes on forever?
that’s an ever never comes
Next you’ll tell me try deep breaths
nothing further from my lips
Then you’ll say “this too shall pass”
only if you say it first
Jeffrey Paparoa Holman